Post 5

yimkin itha ligow 3li hatha il shay will be strong enough ib nisballiha ille yigowimha min hal comma
I hoped for the best...



3li:
I walked while eating a protein bar as a snack. Everytime a car passes by i panic and look the other side so if it was someone i knew they wouldnt recognize me lanna Messila is packed ma3a rab3i.
laffayt wayhi 3ashan i wanted to cross the road bass that was a big mistake. In that moment i knew luck wasnt my friend today. shift rifeeji a7mido ib his platinum colored audi.
a7mad: 3laaw hatha int?
3li: *i tried to look natural as if i was meant to be walking around* h-halla a7mido shlonik??
a7mad: il7mdilillah wint? 
3li: zain il 7mdilillah 
a7mad: inzain int shyaybik ihnii?
3li: la walla gaam atmasha. haa shlon 7ayatik ka shir6i?
a7mad: walla zaain ma5ith ijaza ana il7een. bass fe a5baar to9ali 3an ashyaa2 yideeda w 3ashan chithe bagoolik 3aib 3alaik! 3aib innik itchathib
3li: shgaam tgool?
a7mad 6ila3 barra il sayara chan ala7ith mashallah sh6oola. he came right infront of me w 7aa6 3aina ib 3aini
a7mad: shgaam agool? 3li ana gaam agool inna adrii feeek!! min7aash laish?! 6ala3t galb ummik w 5ara3t il 3ayla killaha w tis2alni shgam agool??!! 3li laish imsowi chithe int mu ille knt a3arfa rifeeji. laish min7aash?!
3li: a7mdo ma a3ti8id raa7 tabi t3arif laish. itha giltlik bitshufni ka wa7ed galba aswaad bass niyiti ma raa7 itkoon mithil ma tafkeerik bewadeek
a7mad: ana 9ayirli a3arfik 7aag sneen shlon a7kim 3alaik w agoolik 3annik wa7ed moo zain. law shnu itgulii bakoon ihnii mawjood lik
i told him the whole story w min da5il a7is sichacheen tid5aal ib ba6ni. the whole time he was silent and his stare is as if he can stare right into my soul
3li: w il7een i regret it bass madri itha ihee 7ayya ow mayta walla a7mido ifhamni w ifham laish sowait chithe. w ma aloomik law kirahtni
a7mad: ...i7mid rabbik bass w ista'3fir allah. sara 3aysha lail7een bass 3allaaw int shlon itfakir ib hal shay?
3li: ma abeeha it3eesh chithe...
a7mad: w ma fakart ib i7saab allah?
3li:...
a7mad: t3arifni i wont judge you bass lazim tit3alaam min hal shay. yalla ana il7een badig 3ala ummik arayi7 galbha w agulaha ligaytik
3li: la tikfa akeed i3rifow shnu sowait ma asta7mil inna ummi ma tkoon rathya 3alaii
a7mad: mahma kaan hathi ummik ihya awaal wa7da bitkun 3indik yammik bitsa3dik. bas 3li ma raa7 awadeek ihnaak. int ti7taaj il7een ra7a w itha shift sara bit7ushik ilynoon w yimkin 9ij ta5sir roo7ha.
he called ummi w kallamha. she wanted to see me so badly bass gaal inna im in a bad state now w min 9al7i inni artaa7 shway. a7mad 5atha wagt 3ashan yihadeeha chan she agrees with him inna a7taaj ra7a
a7mad: yalla irkib il sayara bitnaam ilyoom ib baytna...


in his house:
ga3adna we watched mission impossible III w a7maad 7asha il noma
a7mad: yalla asta2thin banaam 
3li: roo7 naam wayhik im3abir shaklik filim chinna a7ad 6aagi3 ib wayhik =))
i started laughing  ma3a
a7mad: agool wint moo mga9ir 3aad shda3wa malik iljamaal
3li: afa 3alaik bass;) 
a7mido raa7 naam w ana gi3adt ibroo7i ib 9alaat dara.
siraa7t w gaam afakir ib sara i5tii wla everything went blank...
7assait nafsi inna i cant take control of what im doing.
knt gaam arkith barra bayt a7mido ri7t rikatht lay il shari3 w t3archabt. a jolt of pain went through my body as my knee inshilaa5 bil gaar mal il shari3. i felt blood ooze down my knee but i kept going. i stood in the middle of the road. sayara kanaat yaya ittijaahi i wanted to move but i didnt know how to. its lights where blinding me.
il hirin went crazy chaan yi6ig brake w dash bil r9eef.
simaa3t i9raa5 wla ashoof a7madoo yrakith lii. 
kil hal loya rasii faar. shgaam yi9eer feeni??
a word hit my head i knew what was happening i knew what i was going through Ive heard of it
To know that i had this disorder was too much
i fainted...