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A word hit my head I knew what was happening, I knew what I was going through I’ve heard of it. To know that I had this disorder was too much I fainted…

Mariam’s side

I was sitting by Sara’s side studying her heartbeats. Every time I saw her motionless I would panic but then I could see that she was breathing when her lungs expanded. Her face was so calm as if she was angel. Misakt eedha w bidait agra 3alaiha ayaat il kursee, il mu3awithaat w kil soora dashat ib bali I would read it out loud to her. I know she can hear me its been proven that people in commas do. 

 ma kaan fi a7aad mawjood bil ‘3urfa ‘3ayri ana w Sara. 5alti Amal went to run some errands since shes sleeping 3ind Sara she needs to get food and all the necessities. A phone rang and I was positive that it wasn’t my phone cuz I left it in my room and it wasn’t Sara’s cuz her ring tone ‘3aaiir. I went over to the source of the ring and found it on the couch. Kaan mobile 5alti amal akeed nisita! The name that flashed on the screen was “3laywi wildi” and I automatically answered.

Me: 3LIIIII!! LAISH CHTHE HADNA? A7NA AHALIK WE’D NEVER HATE U WHATS DONE IS DONE PLEASE COME BACK!

: Mariam…

From the second I heard the caller’s voice 3iraft inna ma kaan 3li!

Me: 3afwaan min ma3aay?

: ana a7mad bass hatha il7een mu muhim il muhim uhoo 3li! … 3li 7aysha 7alaat thinaa2 il 8u6ub.

Thinaa2 il 8u6ub? Suddenly it hit me. Thinaa2 il 8u6ub was a case of depression which the patient is literally bipolar and doesn’t know what they’re doing. They shift from phases of their normal lives and then when the bipolar part kicks in they actually black out and what they do isn’t from them and they won’t remember any of it. An example is inna 3adii 7adda dayin yikoon ba3dain faj2a yi9eer fasid w 7adda ‘3air 3aan his dayin side.

Me: w-w-w-aina il-il7een?

A7mad: latguleen 7ag 5alti amal! Fakkart feeha w gilt illi feeha kafeeha. Uhoo bil mustashfa.

Me: 9aa7 kalamik. Ay mustashfa? Il ameeri…*I gave him a list of hospitals in Kuwait that I know of*

A7mad: laa2 wla wa7ed feehum d-

Me: * I cut him off* haaw 3ayaal wain?

A7mad: sim3eeni, 3li mu ib mustashfa 3aadiya

Me: sh8azdik

A7mad: 8azdi inna…