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A7mad: dina sim3eeni, 3li mu ib mustashfa 3aadiya

Me: sh8azdik

A7mad: 8azdi inna…

 

A7mad: 8azdi inna uhoo ib major depression center

Me: …ya3ni shlon?

A7mad: ya3nii, madrii shlon agulich yaaha ib 6aree8a zaina bass…*saying it fastly to get it over with* he’s under captivity in the hospital because he can harm himself w ta7t il mura8iba 24/7 because he ran out on the street and a car was gonna hit him, 7mdilillah allah 7ifa’6a…Mariam lail7een ma3aay 3al 5aa6?

I didn’t know what to say he left me speechless. What am I supposed to say? How is he? I already no what the answer is? Allah yi9abir galb 5alti, 3asa ma tadri! I never expected this to happen to 3li, he was always so smiley mashallah 3alaii. Bass hatha shnu Allah and if Allah brought him to it hell bring him through it.

Me: shil ma6loob minni? Ay shay yi7taaja gulli

A7mad: awaal shay la titkallimain 3an hal maw’6oo3 7ag a7aad! Thaaniyan I need u to visit him everyday w yeebay 8uraan w ad3iya weyaach. Bass be sneaky la7aad yishufich tyeen. Ana il7een akallim sayig bayt 3laywi w awa9ee and he’ll be your ride.

Me: Inshallah…yalla ma3a ilsalama

I closed the phone erased the number from the call log and put it where I found it. When I turned around to go back to Dina’s side guess whom I saw behind me?

My mom. I could tell she heard the whole conversation about 3li in the hospital from her face expression! How did she sneak up on me like that?

Me: I can explain…

She was mesmerized and didn’t move a muscle. I rolled myself to her but before I could hug her she, she fainted.

Me: YUMMMAAAAA!!! *tears started pouring out*

I didn’t care if I got injured I dropped the crutches and a jolt of pain ran through me…

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A word hit my head I knew what was happening, I knew what I was going through I’ve heard of it. To know that I had this disorder was too much I fainted…

Mariam’s side

I was sitting by Sara’s side studying her heartbeats. Every time I saw her motionless I would panic but then I could see that she was breathing when her lungs expanded. Her face was so calm as if she was angel. Misakt eedha w bidait agra 3alaiha ayaat il kursee, il mu3awithaat w kil soora dashat ib bali I would read it out loud to her. I know she can hear me its been proven that people in commas do. 

 ma kaan fi a7aad mawjood bil ‘3urfa ‘3ayri ana w Sara. 5alti Amal went to run some errands since shes sleeping 3ind Sara she needs to get food and all the necessities. A phone rang and I was positive that it wasn’t my phone cuz I left it in my room and it wasn’t Sara’s cuz her ring tone ‘3aaiir. I went over to the source of the ring and found it on the couch. Kaan mobile 5alti amal akeed nisita! The name that flashed on the screen was “3laywi wildi” and I automatically answered.

Me: 3LIIIII!! LAISH CHTHE HADNA? A7NA AHALIK WE’D NEVER HATE U WHATS DONE IS DONE PLEASE COME BACK!

: Mariam…

From the second I heard the caller’s voice 3iraft inna ma kaan 3li!

Me: 3afwaan min ma3aay?

: ana a7mad bass hatha il7een mu muhim il muhim uhoo 3li! … 3li 7aysha 7alaat thinaa2 il 8u6ub.

Thinaa2 il 8u6ub? Suddenly it hit me. Thinaa2 il 8u6ub was a case of depression which the patient is literally bipolar and doesn’t know what they’re doing. They shift from phases of their normal lives and then when the bipolar part kicks in they actually black out and what they do isn’t from them and they won’t remember any of it. An example is inna 3adii 7adda dayin yikoon ba3dain faj2a yi9eer fasid w 7adda ‘3air 3aan his dayin side.

Me: w-w-w-aina il-il7een?

A7mad: latguleen 7ag 5alti amal! Fakkart feeha w gilt illi feeha kafeeha. Uhoo bil mustashfa.

Me: 9aa7 kalamik. Ay mustashfa? Il ameeri…*I gave him a list of hospitals in Kuwait that I know of*

A7mad: laa2 wla wa7ed feehum d-

Me: * I cut him off* haaw 3ayaal wain?

A7mad: sim3eeni, 3li mu ib mustashfa 3aadiya

Me: sh8azdik

A7mad: 8azdi inna…